Depressed and Anxious

These past few days have really been a trial for me. I am so sad over Hannah’s failing health. But mostly I am depressed about my non-relationship with Sabrina. We have our meeting with John tomorrow. We actually had a decent text conversation tonight. Apparently she had a great job interview today. I pray she gets the job. I knows she really hates her current job.

I really need to call Dr. S. I do worry about hurting myself. My self worth is so low, and I am really afraid that if Sabrina and I can’t work things out, I will not be able to recover. I haven’t been this depressed ever. I don’t clean or even bother to pick up anything. I don’t even keep myself clean. I can’t even make myself get out of the house to do things I like to do. I know I need help.

Allah, please help me!

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About mairedubhtx

I am a "youngish" grandmother of 15 year old twin granddaughter who has recently (is a year "recent"?) adopted Islam as my way of life, much to the consternation of my family. I love to read. I love to write. I am writing a book about my decision to revert, about my spiritual journey. I have another blog about stories from my youth, my parents, and grandparents. It's a blog so my OCD daughter will not be able to throw it out when I die. I suffer from depression and anxiety, for which I am treated, so my posts may be a bit dark at times. C'est la vie.
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