These past few days have really been a trial for me. I am so sad over Hannah’s failing health. But mostly I am depressed about my non-relationship with Sabrina. We have our meeting with John tomorrow. We actually had a decent text conversation tonight. Apparently she had a great job interview today. I pray she gets the job. I knows she really hates her current job.
I really need to call Dr. S. I do worry about hurting myself. My self worth is so low, and I am really afraid that if Sabrina and I can’t work things out, I will not be able to recover. I haven’t been this depressed ever. I don’t clean or even bother to pick up anything. I don’t even keep myself clean. I can’t even make myself get out of the house to do things I like to do. I know I need help.
Allah, please help me!