Trying To Remain Calm


After my Internet quit working AGAIN last night after the tech was here, I felt just drained and so discouraged. Even the tech noticed that the system had been reset over 15 times since last Friday. It seems that I have direct Internet service at the moment (I have plugged the ethernet cable directly into my computer now), but the wee hours this morning were also difficult.

The power went out for about a minute at 4:30 a.m., then when I tried to call about the Internet, the phone wasn’t working. I called on my cell phone and there was some sort of problem or upgrade going on (I didn’t listen that carefully and they said it would be back on shortly. True enough, I now have phone service and can connect to the Internet with the ethernet cable. I still have to call them about the router because why should I pay for wireless if I can’t get the wireless to work?

So at the moment, I am grateful that I am at least able to connect to the Internet. That is my big gratitude for the day.

I distracted myself by reading my Chinese numerology paper. It is so complicated that I’m not sure that I will ever understand it, especially having to convert my birthday to the lunar calendar. My lunar birthdate is October 3, 1949. That much I know. It get more complicated from there. I did understand that I am lacking metal and earth from my chart (even though I am a wood ox, I think). So I need quartz and metal around me to make up for the lack of those elements in my chart.

In the Western square charts, I have no arrow of strength and one of weakness. The arrow got me a bit confused, too. There are short arrows and I have already forgotten what they mean. I do know that the master number 11 is very important in my life. It is my life path number. The master number 22 is my birth number. Master numbers are very strong.

Numerology fascinates me more than astrology because it is so personal. It is also much more complicated that the simple astrology predictions; it explains why you are the way you are and what you can do about the lack of the numbers in your Chinese charts or your birth charts. It makes sense to me, even if people think I’m a bit crazy for believing in it. It combines the aspects of astrology with the personalization of your numbers. Makes sense to me, that’s all.






About mairedubhtx

I am a "youngish" grandmother of 15 year old twin granddaughter who has recently (is a year "recent"?) adopted Islam as my way of life, much to the consternation of my family. I love to read. I love to write. I am writing a book about my decision to revert, about my spiritual journey. I have another blog about stories from my youth, my parents, and grandparents. It's a blog so my OCD daughter will not be able to throw it out when I die. I suffer from depression and anxiety, for which I am treated, so my posts may be a bit dark at times. C'est la vie.
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