Do you enjoy being alone? Would you rather be around other people?
Being a true introvert, I actually enjoy being alone. I get anxious when I have to be around other people or in social situations. I’m okay if I have to go the doctor’s office or to some appointment like that but if I have to go shopping or to a social engagement, I have to pop a few anti-anxiety pills or I would never get there. I get terribly anxious and upset about being with other people in those types of situations. Yes, even going to the store to do errand makes me nervous and anxious. But the social situations are the worst. I have been forcing myself to go out to those types of engagements and let me tell you, it is NOT easy. I really have to work myself into going and practically shove myself out the door.
I would much rather just stay home with the dogs in my messy house and feel comfortable and safe. I don’t feel safe in social situations and feel very uncomfortable. I’m not skilled aT small talk and feel like I’m not an interesting person to be around. I try to smile and be pleasant but always feel that I’m interfering in other people’s conversations. I don’t know how others feel about me. I’m not good at reading other people and their feelings. Maybe that’s why I’m so uncomfortable. At any rate, I would much rather be at home than at a social event but I go to them anyway because I know I should (my shrink told me I should and I do what she tells me to do). I have a holiday party coming up next week for my CASA group which will be nice. They are nice people and I know I won’t feel too threatened. I hope the judges aren’t there. Then I’ll freak ou.