Category Archives: Christmas

Joyeux Noël

Joyeux Noël and Merry Christmas to all my blogger friends and those of you who happen to drop by.   Advertisements

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I Feel As Though I’m Not Really Here

So many ridiculous things have happened in the past 10 days that I truly don’t even know what I’m feeling. I thought things were improving with my daughter until Christmas. When I didn’t even receive a call, I was so … Continue reading

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The Worst Movie Ever

I took the girls to the movies this afternoon. They wanted to go see “Tron–The Legacy.” I used to think “The Matrix” was the worst movie I had ever seen. Boy, was I wrong. This movie made absolutely no sense. … Continue reading

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Maybe A Misunderstanding?

So why I have still not heard a word of any kind from Sabrina? Could we have a misunderstanding here? She asked a question the other day (Sunday) on FaceBook about Muslims celebrating Christmas. Some of her friends gave some … Continue reading

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A New Day

Funny what a good night’s sleep can do for the mind and the soul. It seems that everything appears the bleakest in the nighttime, especially when the day hasn’t gone so well either. The morning comes, and even though it’s … Continue reading

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More Christmas Day Thoughts

Now it’s noon. Still haven’t heard from my daughter. I guess I feel like writing about it since I can’t do anything about her lack of concern or sensitivity to me. I just hope and pray that her daughters never … Continue reading

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Christmas Day

  Even though I am a Muslim, I am an American and Christmas is embedded into my very fiber. Following the dictates of my religion, I did not decorate for Christmas (apart from a poinsettia plant which I sent to … Continue reading

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French Carols

I know. I am a Muslima. What am I doing listening to French Christmas carols? I love the music, especially the old winter carols and tunes from medieval times. I love the English ones too. I love them all. They … Continue reading

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Sunday

So it’s Sunday. I didn’t sleep well last night. I don’t know why. I kept waking up every hour or so. Around 3:30 am, I took some Klonopin. Didn’t really help. Didn’t feel terribly anxious, just couldn’t really sleep. When … Continue reading

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