Category Archives: daughter

Dream-Like, or Nightmare

I woke very early this morning–somewhere around 3:15 a.m. No particular reason; just awoke. I read a bit in Deserts and Mountains, took a shower, wrote in my morning pages book (have been neglecting writing my book, however). I felt … Continue reading

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The Realms of Darkness

I read something this morning that struck me as being pertinent to my situation: “The realms of darkness  are the first place to search when you are dealing with evil. The evil condition of the human mind is such a … Continue reading

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To Give Or Not To Give, That Is The Question

My granddaughters and I are going to see a movie this afternoon, and since I haven’t seen them since before Christmas, I packaged up their Christmas gifts to take over to their house. But I have been debating and going … Continue reading

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Maybe A Misunderstanding?

So why I have still not heard a word of any kind from Sabrina? Could we have a misunderstanding here? She asked a question the other day (Sunday) on FaceBook about Muslims celebrating Christmas. Some of her friends gave some … Continue reading

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More Christmas Day Thoughts

Now it’s noon. Still haven’t heard from my daughter. I guess I feel like writing about it since I can’t do anything about her lack of concern or sensitivity to me. I just hope and pray that her daughters never … Continue reading

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More Falls, Literally

Last night I took my granddaughters for dinner at their favorite restaurant–for us–Red Lobster. Cassie was awfully quiet. Jackie was talkative as usual. I had invited Sabrina, too, but Clint seems to have the flu–a virus, she says–but it sounds … Continue reading

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Why Am I Still So Depressed?

I am still depressed and anxious. Not as bad as yesterday or the day before, but still had IBS this morning and headache (rebound from the hydrocodone?). I have not had a call from Sabrina in a week. She didn’t … Continue reading

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