Category Archives: Islam

Writing My Book

I got up on time today (5 a.m.) and read my emails and watched a little TV before I said my prayers. Then I just decided to write. I wrote quite a bit yesterday, and it was an emotionally charged … Continue reading

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My Reality Show

If I were to produce a reality show, it would be about my life. Like my book, it would be about an American woman who was born and raised according to American values and Western culture and then adopted Islam … Continue reading

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What’s The Single Most Important Thing You Accomplished in 2010?

What’s the single most important thing I accomplished in 2010? That’s a very good question. I gave it some thought and I think that the single most important thing I accomplished is adopting Islam as my way of life. The … Continue reading

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Friday–Very Busy

This has been a very busy day today and it’s only early afternoon. Ernie had an appointment with the doggie eye doctor this morning. Mashallah, he is doing really well. The doctor is very pleased with his progress with both … Continue reading

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I Feel As Though I’m Not Really Here

So many ridiculous things have happened in the past 10 days that I truly don’t even know what I’m feeling. I thought things were improving with my daughter until Christmas. When I didn’t even receive a call, I was so … Continue reading

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How did this Happen?

All I did was to tell my daughter that is she wanted more accurate information on Islam, she could simply ask me and if I didn’t know the answer I would ask our sheikh. 4 hours later, she is threatening … Continue reading

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How Can We Know Who Allah Really Is?

I am so confused. I wrote this great post about my thoughts about Allah (swt) and how we can not really know about Him, and it has disappeared! Anyway, my thought went something like this: we can never really know … Continue reading

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Good Things, Not So Good Things

Yesterday was a mixed day for me. First, I went to see Bart to have money put into my checking account so that I can pay bills, buy Christmas gifts, and pay for my trip to NYS. I really hated … Continue reading

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Anxiety and Ernie’s Teeth, Among Other Anxieties

Tomorrow is teeth-cleaning day for Ernie, and I am quite anxious. It was a little over 8 years ago that my darling Schnauzer Allie died suddenly during a routine teeth-cleaning procedure. I know that this is a very rare occurrence, … Continue reading

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Two Weeks Plus–Still An Outcast

It was two weeks yesterday since I was unceremoniously ejected from the Hahn-McNally house, and 10 days since I’ve spoken to Sabrina. That’s when she called after her appointment with John to tell me that he wanted to see both … Continue reading

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