Category Archives: reading

A Day at the Movies and Some Cleaning, Too

I packed more things for the girls today. I took all the figurines over to their house. I hope that they like them. I packed all the Purple Ladies and Purple Girls, and the Unicorns, except for the one with … Continue reading

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I Feel As Though I’m Not Really Here

So many ridiculous things have happened in the past 10 days that I truly don’t even know what I’m feeling. I thought things were improving with my daughter until Christmas. When I didn’t even receive a call, I was so … Continue reading

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Dream-Like, or Nightmare

I woke very early this morning–somewhere around 3:15 a.m. No particular reason; just awoke. I read a bit in Deserts and Mountains, took a shower, wrote in my morning pages book (have been neglecting writing my book, however). I felt … Continue reading

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Can I Ever Be Normal?

Sometimes, (well, A LOT of times), I wonder if I’ll ever be normal or even feel somewhat normal. I did make an attempt, a feeble one, to clean up some of the garbage in my kitchen and on the counter. … Continue reading

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Emotions Go Up, Emotions Gi Down

It’s Saturday. It’s funny. I sleep okay, probably due to my meds, but as soon as I awake, the dreaded anxiety hits me like a ton of bricks. I’ve had to take 1.0 before the anxiety becomes bearable. I ask … Continue reading

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Jury Duty and Allergies

Yesterday I had jury duty at JP #2. We were dismissed by 10:30 a.m. No cases to try. Today was another bad allergy day. Migraine and PAIN! Took so much meds. Tomorrow is our Reading Circle. Then I plan to … Continue reading

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