Category Archives: suicide

What’s The Single Most Important Thing You Accomplished in 2010?

What’s the single most important thing I accomplished in 2010? That’s a very good question. I gave it some thought and I think that the single most important thing I accomplished is adopting Islam as my way of life. The … Continue reading

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Dream-Like, or Nightmare

I woke very early this morning–somewhere around 3:15 a.m. No particular reason; just awoke. I read a bit in Deserts and Mountains, took a shower, wrote in my morning pages book (have been neglecting writing my book, however). I felt … Continue reading

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More Christmas Day Thoughts

Now it’s noon. Still haven’t heard from my daughter. I guess I feel like writing about it since I can’t do anything about her lack of concern or sensitivity to me. I just hope and pray that her daughters never … Continue reading

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Guess I’m Missing Class

I was supposed to go to tutor training this morning — right now, but after 2 cups of coffee and a whole Vyvanse, I still feel only half awake. The alarm blasted me out of a sound sleep at 5 … Continue reading

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Have I Lost My Daughter?

I went to see John Sherwood yesterday. It was so upsetting that I couldn’t even write about it until now. We had a rather heated discussion about religion–my religion specially, but also religion in general. John really has a real … Continue reading

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Ambushed

Yesterday was the appointment for Sabrina and me with John. It was an absolute nightmare, far worse than I could have ever imagined. Sabrina attacked and attacked, called me a liar, mocked me, belittled me, dismissed anything I had to … Continue reading

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