Tag Archives: rejection

I Feel As Though I’m Not Really Here

So many ridiculous things have happened in the past 10 days that I truly don’t even know what I’m feeling. I thought things were improving with my daughter until Christmas. When I didn’t even receive a call, I was so … Continue reading

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Dream-Like, or Nightmare

I woke very early this morning–somewhere around 3:15 a.m. No particular reason; just awoke. I read a bit in Deserts and Mountains, took a shower, wrote in my morning pages book (have been neglecting writing my book, however). I felt … Continue reading

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More Christmas Day Thoughts

Now it’s noon. Still haven’t heard from my daughter. I guess I feel like writing about it since I can’t do anything about her lack of concern or sensitivity to me. I just hope and pray that her daughters never … Continue reading

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