Category Archives: fear

I Am SOOOOO Frustrated!!!

This working/nonworking Internet has got me so frustrated. I can’t even go out because someone will come at 5 p.m. to “maybe” install a new router. No one can figure out what is going on with it. It works one … Continue reading

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Dream-Like, or Nightmare

I woke very early this morning–somewhere around 3:15 a.m. No particular reason; just awoke. I read a bit in Deserts and Mountains, took a shower, wrote in my morning pages book (have been neglecting writing my book, however). I felt … Continue reading

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The Realms of Darkness

I read something this morning that struck me as being pertinent to my situation: “The realms of darkness  are the first place to search when you are dealing with evil. The evil condition of the human mind is such a … Continue reading

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Dr. Phil’s show yesterday was about dreams. And since I ate pizza just before going to sleep last night, I had some interesting dreams. (Eating solid food just before sleep brings on vivid dreams for me.) The first dream I … Continue reading

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Emotions Go Up, Emotions Gi Down

It’s Saturday. It’s funny. I sleep okay, probably due to my meds, but as soon as I awake, the dreaded anxiety hits me like a ton of bricks. I’ve had to take 1.0 before the anxiety becomes bearable. I ask … Continue reading

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