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Optomist Or Pessimist?

Am I an optomist or a pessimist? I am both, depending on circumstances. I’m an optomist in the sense that I expect the best and the good in people. I’m not cynical in general about people and their motives. Maybe … Continue reading

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A Welcome Phone Call

I received a phone call from Sabrina last evening. She was at the airport waiting for her flight to Las Vegas. She is going out for DJames’s 1st birthday, which is on Friday. Rachel is picking her up and she … Continue reading

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More Dreams

I only remember part of one dream last night. The part I remember was Ernie grabbing the carrot toy from Hannah and running off with it. So maybe I should take his carrot to the pet resort. I was thinking … Continue reading

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Still Waiting For…

I went to see both Dr. S and John today. Dr. S doubled my new med to see if it would help my sleeping. About my agorophia, she says I have to FORCE myself to go out. She also decided … Continue reading

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A Break-Through

Sabrina and I met with John last night, and for the first time in nearly 3 months, I have hope that I have not lost my daughter. She was pleasant but tired when she came in. Jackie has a cold, … Continue reading

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Have I Lost My Daughter?

I went to see John Sherwood yesterday. It was so upsetting that I couldn’t even write about it until now. We had a rather heated discussion about religion–my religion specially, but also religion in general. John really has a real … Continue reading

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Good Morning

Woke early again, this time 4:30 a.m.! Crazy me, I actually took BOTH my a.m. and p.m. meds last night, so I had to take another set of a.m. meds today. Slept okay, I guess, with some dreams but I … Continue reading

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Yesterday was the appointment for Sabrina and me with John. It was an absolute nightmare, far worse than I could have ever imagined. Sabrina attacked and attacked, called me a liar, mocked me, belittled me, dismissed anything I had to … Continue reading

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A Difficult Day, So Far

Well, it has not been a good day thus far. I got a call from the vet around 10:30. Ernie was under anesthesia, and she cleaning his teeth when she discovered that he has a fractured jaw! Good grief! She … Continue reading

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Anxiety and Ernie’s Teeth, Among Other Anxieties

Tomorrow is teeth-cleaning day for Ernie, and I am quite anxious. It was a little over 8 years ago that my darling Schnauzer Allie died suddenly during a routine teeth-cleaning procedure. I know that this is a very rare occurrence, … Continue reading

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