Category Archives: rejection

What’s The Single Most Important Thing You Accomplished in 2010?

Posted on January 21, 2011 by mairedubhtx

What’s the single most important thing I accomplished in 2010? That’s a very good question. I gave it some thought and I think that the single most important thing I accomplished is adopting Islam as my way of life. The … Continue reading →

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I Feel As Though I’m Not Really Here

Posted on January 4, 2011 by mairedubhtx

So many ridiculous things have happened in the past 10 days that I truly don’t even know what I’m feeling. I thought things were improving with my daughter until Christmas. When I didn’t even receive a call, I was so … Continue reading →

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How did this Happen?

Posted on January 2, 2011 by mairedubhtx

All I did was to tell my daughter that is she wanted more accurate information on Islam, she could simply ask me and if I didn’t know the answer I would ask our sheikh. 4 hours later, she is threatening … Continue reading →

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The Worst Movie Ever

Posted on January 1, 2011 by mairedubhtx

I took the girls to the movies this afternoon. They wanted to go see “Tron–The Legacy.” I used to think “The Matrix” was the worst movie I had ever seen. Boy, was I wrong. This movie made absolutely no sense. … Continue reading →

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Dream-Like, or Nightmare

Posted on December 31, 2010 by mairedubhtx

I woke very early this morning–somewhere around 3:15 a.m. No particular reason; just awoke. I read a bit in Deserts and Mountains, took a shower, wrote in my morning pages book (have been neglecting writing my book, however). I felt … Continue reading →

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A New Day

Posted on December 26, 2010 by mairedubhtx

Funny what a good night’s sleep can do for the mind and the soul. It seems that everything appears the bleakest in the nighttime, especially when the day hasn’t gone so well either. The morning comes, and even though it’s … Continue reading →

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More Christmas Day Thoughts

Posted on December 25, 2010 by mairedubhtx

Now it’s noon. Still haven’t heard from my daughter. I guess I feel like writing about it since I can’t do anything about her lack of concern or sensitivity to me. I just hope and pray that her daughters never … Continue reading →

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Have I Lost My Daughter?

Posted on October 27, 2010 by mairedubhtx

I went to see John Sherwood yesterday. It was so upsetting that I couldn’t even write about it until now. We had a rather heated discussion about religion–my religion specially, but also religion in general. John really has a real … Continue reading →

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I Feel So Sad

Posted on September 20, 2010 by mairedubhtx

I took Ernie to the groomer this morning and he looks great. But I bought some canned food for Hannah, in hopes that she would eat. But she hasn’t touched it. She has a weak, pained cry. She stumbled on … Continue reading →

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