Category Archives: depression

Depression

Posted on October 11, 2011 by mairedubhtx

Pick a topic from yesterday and write about it. My Depression I don’t like to talk about nor write about my depression. I’ve been dealing with it since I was a teenager and it’s gotten progressively worse over the years … Continue reading →

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My Reality Show

Posted on January 30, 2011 by mairedubhtx

If I were to produce a reality show, it would be about my life. Like my book, it would be about an American woman who was born and raised according to American values and Western culture and then adopted Islam … Continue reading →

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What’s The Single Most Important Thing You Accomplished in 2010?

Posted on January 21, 2011 by mairedubhtx

What’s the single most important thing I accomplished in 2010? That’s a very good question. I gave it some thought and I think that the single most important thing I accomplished is adopting Islam as my way of life. The … Continue reading →

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A Day at the Movies and Some Cleaning, Too

Posted on January 16, 2011 by mairedubhtx

I packed more things for the girls today. I took all the figurines over to their house. I hope that they like them. I packed all the Purple Ladies and Purple Girls, and the Unicorns, except for the one with … Continue reading →

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No, they didn’t; Yes, they did; No; Yes

Posted on January 16, 2011 by mairedubhtx

The entire day yesterday was spent–literally from 9:00 a.m. to 7:30 p.m.–was spent either on the phone with Time Warner  trying them to get someone back here to fix the modem or having someone here trying to fix it. After … Continue reading →

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Thank God for my Psychiatrist and Therapist

Posted on January 10, 2011 by mairedubhtx

I am so grateful that I have such a good psychiatrist and therapist. I called John this morning about the woman who does organizing and works with hoarders. He called her and she is going to call me tomorrow, and … Continue reading →

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I Feel As Though I’m Not Really Here

Posted on January 4, 2011 by mairedubhtx

So many ridiculous things have happened in the past 10 days that I truly don’t even know what I’m feeling. I thought things were improving with my daughter until Christmas. When I didn’t even receive a call, I was so … Continue reading →

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I Am A Nervous Wreck

Posted on January 3, 2011 by mairedubhtx

I think I am going insane. Sabrina has twisted everything I have done or said to make it seem like I am out of my mind and can’t take care of myself. Maybe I can’t. I know the house is … Continue reading →

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How did this Happen?

Posted on January 2, 2011 by mairedubhtx

All I did was to tell my daughter that is she wanted more accurate information on Islam, she could simply ask me and if I didn’t know the answer I would ask our sheikh. 4 hours later, she is threatening … Continue reading →

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The Worst Movie Ever

Posted on January 1, 2011 by mairedubhtx

I took the girls to the movies this afternoon. They wanted to go see “Tron–The Legacy.” I used to think “The Matrix” was the worst movie I had ever seen. Boy, was I wrong. This movie made absolutely no sense. … Continue reading →

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