Category Archives: feeling like I don’t belong

What’s The Single Most Important Thing You Accomplished in 2010?

Posted on January 21, 2011 by mairedubhtx

What’s the single most important thing I accomplished in 2010? That’s a very good question. I gave it some thought and I think that the single most important thing I accomplished is adopting Islam as my way of life. The … Continue reading →

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I Feel As Though I’m Not Really Here

Posted on January 4, 2011 by mairedubhtx

So many ridiculous things have happened in the past 10 days that I truly don’t even know what I’m feeling. I thought things were improving with my daughter until Christmas. When I didn’t even receive a call, I was so … Continue reading →

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How did this Happen?

Posted on January 2, 2011 by mairedubhtx

All I did was to tell my daughter that is she wanted more accurate information on Islam, she could simply ask me and if I didn’t know the answer I would ask our sheikh. 4 hours later, she is threatening … Continue reading →

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The Worst Movie Ever

Posted on January 1, 2011 by mairedubhtx

I took the girls to the movies this afternoon. They wanted to go see “Tron–The Legacy.” I used to think “The Matrix” was the worst movie I had ever seen. Boy, was I wrong. This movie made absolutely no sense. … Continue reading →

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Maybe A Misunderstanding?

Posted on December 27, 2010 by mairedubhtx

So why I have still not heard a word of any kind from Sabrina? Could we have a misunderstanding here? She asked a question the other day (Sunday) on FaceBook about Muslims celebrating Christmas. Some of her friends gave some … Continue reading →

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More Christmas Day Thoughts

Posted on December 25, 2010 by mairedubhtx

Now it’s noon. Still haven’t heard from my daughter. I guess I feel like writing about it since I can’t do anything about her lack of concern or sensitivity to me. I just hope and pray that her daughters never … Continue reading →

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Fudge, Cookies, Grad School, and Lack of Sleep

Posted on December 23, 2010 by mairedubhtx

Well, it’s been an interesting day today. I woke up at 2:15 a.m. and could NOT get back to sleep this morning. It was not for lack of trying. So I gave up and decided to get up and take … Continue reading →

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More Falls, Literally

Posted on December 20, 2010 by mairedubhtx

Last night I took my granddaughters for dinner at their favorite restaurant–for us–Red Lobster. Cassie was awfully quiet. Jackie was talkative as usual. I had invited Sabrina, too, but Clint seems to have the flu–a virus, she says–but it sounds … Continue reading →

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My Trip

Posted on December 1, 2010 by mairedubhtx

I am glad that I went to NY, even though I have mixed emotions. It was wonderful being with Pattie. We had great talks. She understands me and the problems with Sabrina. Joanne is so much like my mother–go, go, … Continue reading →

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