Category Archives: feeling used

I Feel As Though I’m Not Really Here

Posted on January 4, 2011 by mairedubhtx

So many ridiculous things have happened in the past 10 days that I truly don’t even know what I’m feeling. I thought things were improving with my daughter until Christmas. When I didn’t even receive a call, I was so … Continue reading →

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How did this Happen?

Posted on January 2, 2011 by mairedubhtx

All I did was to tell my daughter that is she wanted more accurate information on Islam, she could simply ask me and if I didn’t know the answer I would ask our sheikh. 4 hours later, she is threatening … Continue reading →

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The Worst Movie Ever

Posted on January 1, 2011 by mairedubhtx

I took the girls to the movies this afternoon. They wanted to go see “Tron–The Legacy.” I used to think “The Matrix” was the worst movie I had ever seen. Boy, was I wrong. This movie made absolutely no sense. … Continue reading →

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More Christmas Day Thoughts

Posted on December 25, 2010 by mairedubhtx

Now it’s noon. Still haven’t heard from my daughter. I guess I feel like writing about it since I can’t do anything about her lack of concern or sensitivity to me. I just hope and pray that her daughters never … Continue reading →

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More Falls, Literally

Posted on December 20, 2010 by mairedubhtx

Last night I took my granddaughters for dinner at their favorite restaurant–for us–Red Lobster. Cassie was awfully quiet. Jackie was talkative as usual. I had invited Sabrina, too, but Clint seems to have the flu–a virus, she says–but it sounds … Continue reading →

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Still Waiting For…

Posted on November 8, 2010 by mairedubhtx

I went to see both Dr. S and John today. Dr. S doubled my new med to see if it would help my sleeping. About my agorophia, she says I have to FORCE myself to go out. She also decided … Continue reading →

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